SOL: Generation One – Chapter Thirty

A/N: A warning for the mention of abortion/miscarriages and some of the opinions that come along with these topics.

Oh, and I couldn’t be arsed to go through with the pregnancy in game to give her a bump, so just don’t look too closely at her flat stomach when it is in shots, lmao!


Faye had been dreading seeing his face ever since she realised she’d have to tell him. Part of her wanted to hide the truth from him – it wouldn’t be that hard, after all – but she thought of their growing friendship and the conversations they’d had that begun to bridge the startlingly large gap between them, and she couldn’t do that.

“Hey, what’s up?” Kane asked, closing the door softly behind him. He’d come straight from work because she’d asked him to, and usually that meant they would spend the rest of the night in each other’s company. One look at Faye’s indecisive expression quickly corrected the assumption that tonight was going to be like the others.


There was no easy way to start the conversation, and Faye had never been anything but blunt. “I’m pregnant,” she blurted out, averting her eyes so that she could peer at the rug beneath her feet. Huh. It really needed a hoover.

Stunned silence met her, and then finally; “I thought you were on the pill?” There was some accusation in his words, and Faye flushed with anger. It was more directed at herself, but at least it wasn’t her making the same mistake – though Kane’s train of thought was clearly wondering if this had been an “accidental” pregnancy.


“It’s not a hundred per cent effective,” she whispered. “That’s what the doctor’s said.”

“Shit,” Kane said, and really, that summed their situation up.

“I just… just thought you should know. I was going to, um, you know.” She couldn’t quite bring herself to say the word aloud, uncomfortable with the very idea that she could be ending a life even if she wasn’t all that sure the thing inside her could be considered ‘alive’ yet. At Kane’s confounded expression, though, she figured that she needed to elaborate. “Abort it,” she muttered.


“What?” Of all of the ways she imagined him responding, panicked and hurt wasn’t one of them. Relieved, yes. Calmly accepting, definitely. But this? She chanced a look at his face, and saw his eyes were wide. “No,” he said, folding his arms, though his shoulders quickly slumped. “I mean, I can’t force you, but… please, Faye. You can’t kill it. It’s our… our kid.”

Faye stared at him. “You really think we deserve to bring a kid into this world? Do you know the first thing about being a parent?”

“We… could learn? Look, if it happened despite the pill, then doesn’t it mean it’s meant to be?”

With a sudden flash, Faye remembered Kane confessing to her that his family was stupidly, deeply catholic, and she wondered if some of that had rubbed off on him.


She started to shake her head, but Kane came forward quickly and caught her hand. Though they’d slept with each other several times – in both senses of the word – and woke up with limbs entangled, fingers drawling lazy circles on warm skin, they had never been tender away from the covers. She stared at their hands clasped together, in a way she ached to be familiar to her one day, and then back to his pleading gaze.


“I… There’s time, right? To think about this? That’s all I ask, just to think about it.” He looked at her earnestly, eyes flitting down to her stomach with a desperate wonder, and Faye couldn’t quite find the heart to say no to him.

“Okay,” she nodded, despite her better judgement, and was rewarded with Kane’s eyes lighting up.

“We can do this. I’ll show you.” He squeezed her hand and she mirrored his giddy smile, though she couldn’t make it reach her eyes.



Faye had promised to think about it, and she did. In fact, it was all she did think about. Every day she found something new that she wasn’t allowed to drink, eat, or do, and part of her felt guilty for even considering doing it anyway. Surely, if her mind was so against the child in her belly, it would have got the message by now?

She wondered how guilty she’d feel then, if she suddenly discovered blood between her thighs.

Part of her, strangely enough, was slowly coming to embrace the idea of being a mother. She felt great, which was weird, given how many horror stories she’d heard about pregnancy, but the light morning sickness had already disappeared, and she felt that she could take on the world. It was a perplexing contrast to the chaos in her mind.


Alicia had taken her decision with pursed lips but had offered no advice, having been asked for none, and instead began to pester Faye to eat, do light exercises, and make appointments with doctors (and all sorts of other people. Faye had no idea having a baby was so complicated. She assumed as soon as the thing came out of her that she’d know how to hold it).

In her mind’s eye, she could see the future that she was desperately hoping for. To grow old with someone, have that companionship, have inside jokes which sent them into mischievous giggles. It was almost unfair, Faye thought, to have grown up with parents so in love even to this day. It set an impossibly high standard that she doubted was possible even for Summer and Uma to attain.

And, of course, thinking about her parents inevitably brought their judgement to mind.

“What’s wrong?” Alicia asked, perching on the sofa next to where Faye was staring in the middle distance.

Faye didn’t answer for a moment, wondering if she really had to, but eventually let out a long sigh. “My parents were right,” she said sullenly.

One bright orange eyebrow arched up. “About?” she prompted.


“Everything.” Faye laughed bitterly. “I’m not responsible, I don’t think about my future, I’m a disappointment. What will they think when I tell them I have a kid on the way? I’ll barely be nineteen when it’s due. I mean, my parents had us young, but they were together, in a good relationship, probably financially secure and-“ her breath hitched and Faye stopped, scrubbing her face with her hands.

“What they think doesn’t matter,” Alicia shrugged.


Faye sighed deeply and wandered to the window, looking out at the view over the village park where tiny specks played on the swings and slides. Would her kid be doing that one day? She frowned at the thought. Shouldn’t she have some motherly urge to protect them? She felt nothing.

“Of course their opinion matters,” Faye muttered. She stared at a car trying to parallel park opposite the busy school, before giving up and moving on. “Do you think I’d be a good mother?” she asked.


Alicia glanced over to Faye, her grey outfit unfortunately fitting for her mood. “In the future,” Alicia said with confidence. “When you were ready. But now?” She bit her lip and watched Faye’s face, though there was no indication that she was listening. “Maybe not.”

Faye sighed in response.



Kane’s flat was on the top floor in a block opposite where they worked. It wasn’t large, but it was a good price and had been well looked after, which was why they had agreed to move into his and raise the baby there, if Faye made the right decision (the ‘right’ had been the unspoken word in their conversations, but Faye knew what Kane wanted to say). His landlady was a sweet old woman who was perfectly happy with the idea of a child in her building, but Faye suspected she had been bribed with the gingersnap cookies that he was shockingly good at making.


“What do you think?” Kane asked, pride shining in his voice. Faye stared at what was once Kane’s cluttered work out and office space with surprise. She hadn’t been aware that this had been part of his plan to show her that they could do this.

“There isn’t anything, you know, personal right now. I thought that could… wait.” His voice trailed off at the implication. “But I’ve been watching these decorating programmes, we could make some really nice wall decorations or something.”

He continued when she didn’t say anything, his voice taking on a desperate tinge, but Faye couldn’t quite bring herself to say anything. She wanted to cry, not speak.

She could picture exactly the future she wanted; the future that could be within her grasp. Kane whistling cheerfully as he baked, Faye entertaining their son who waited impatiently for the sweet treats.

“I think someone’s hungry,” she would giggle, bouncing the child on her hip and looking down at his grinning face.

“Hungy!”

And Kane would chuckle, glancing over his shoulder to watch their son for a moment, love in his eyes, before turning back to his creation. “Good things come to those who wait.”

“No wait!”

“Patience, young one,” he would reply, in a silly voice, and they would both laugh at their son’s disgruntled frown.


And this room, this was the start of it. Their son would sleep soundly with some home-made decorations keeping him comfortable. Kane would make sure their baby monitor was on and working, in charge of exactly what they needed, while reading baby books on how to encourage their son to sleep through the night.


He would be a good dad; or at least he would try. Faye knew that instinctively, with no evidence to support her belief. She had never seen him interact with children, but she had begun to notice that he did what he could to be the opposite of his own father, even if he didn’t notice.

Would he dance with their son to the radio in the mornings? Would he sing him to sleep after a nightmare? Would Faye wake up to a small warm body snuggled between theirs, and see Kane smiling wondrously down at the boy between them?

Probably, Faye decided. But she wouldn’t, and it would never be a happy relationship between them.


She had murmured something about being tired in lieu of an answer, so Kane had steered her towards his bed where they took a nap. Faye didn’t sleep, but she dreamed of everything she wanted, and the more she dreamt, the more she knew this wasn’t it.
She sat up quickly. Her jolt woke Kane, who mumbled incoherent words and rubbed at his eyes.

“I can’t,” Faye hiccupped, rubbing away cold tear tracks on her cheeks. “I can’t be a mother.”


Kane froze. She glanced over her shoulder at his face, half fearing what she’d see there, and the flurry of emotions that passed over him was too quick to pick anything out.

“Faye…” he pleaded.

“No,” she said, sniffing. “This would never work between us. I can’t… do this.”

Kane’s eyes flashed. “You haven’t even tried!”

“I don’t need to try to know I’m bad at something,” Faye snapped back, one arm hugging herself defensively, the other smoothing down lines on the quilt to pretend she had never been here. It would be better that way, wouldn’t it?


Kane sat up and glared at her. “Did you even think about it, or did you just pretend so that I’d get my hopes up?”

Faye scoffed. “Do you really think you’re ready to be a father? Do you even know what that entails?”

“I don’t care what it entails,” Kane said angrily, his fists bunching up the pattern on his bedspread. “It’s a life, and I’m not happy letting it go even if you are.”

“I’m being sensible!” she struck back, eyes narrowing. “I know I’m not ready to be a mother. Maybe you could do it, but I can’t.”

Kane fell silent, every muscle in his back tensed, his shoulders up by his ears. “So that’s that,” he said, voice cracking. She wondered what he had thought of the future, while she had been dreaming about a perfect nuclear family.


Kane shook his head, let out his breath slowly, and stood. “Alright,” he said, frowning over at her. Faye was surprised to see no residual anger, only a wary resignation that took her aback. “It’s your decision, I guess. At the end of the day, I have no say in this, right?” He laughed bitterly, rubbing his eyes. “That’s probably not fair. Whatever. I’m not going with you to do it. Just tell me it’s done and then do me the favour of never speaking to me again.”

Faye blinked away tears. She took a deep breath, a new future in her mind’s eye. “What if there’s another option?” she asked in a small voice, rewarded by Kane’s eyebrows raising in obvious question. “Do you really want to be a father that badly?” she asked, holding her hand over her stomach that still wasn’t that big. Hesitantly, Kane nodded.


 


And that was how Kane found himself staring over the rails of the crib, where a baby boy was sleeping soundly after being brought back from the hospital. Kane had hoped, desperately, that Faye would change her mind about staying with them, and she had seemed tempted at points, but ultimately had made the choice to move back home. She’d asked him not to contact her, and not to tell anyone that she was the mother – all in return for carrying the baby to term.


Kane didn’t quite realise how much his catholic upbringing had impacted his gut aversion to the idea of abortion, but he also didn’t quite realise that other factors were at play to ensure this child was going to be brought into the world.

The name Law had seemed to come out of nowhere to Kane, but he liked it enough to name his child that, unknowingly choosing a fitting name for a boy who would change the world, because while the boy sleeping in front of him wasn’t going to continue the Williams’ line, he would be paramount in keeping it alive in the years to come.


A/N: Finally, FINALLY, we are at the end of this generation. We shall be following Law for a little while before seeing what the main family has got up to in our absence.

I was determined to get this out before August, but alas, here we are. I’m hoping some unpacking this weekend will be followed with time to catch up, or at least start on the many many chapters I am looking forward to reading!

29 thoughts on “SOL: Generation One – Chapter Thirty”

    1. Oooo im so excit! I had genuinely forgotten how early on Law is born. I meani knew he had to be gen 3 (or 2? J&J aren’t counted right?) shits about to start getting real and I’m HYPE!

      Also. I fucking appreciate how you depicted Kane here. In situations like this so many people forget that the guys do have a lot of feelings and even if there isnt any say for them one way or the other their feels ARE valid. Its nice that you didnt depict him as either the man who has no opinion, or the man who is evil and trying to force a woman to do something she doesn’t want. Like. Its okay he was excited, and its omay he asked her to think about it, and kts totally okay he was angry and unsupportive if her choice. You did it well and im so fucking hapoy about it.

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      1. I’m really happy that it all came across as I intended! It’s a subject people get quite angry about, and understandably so, but I didn’t want to depict either of them as /wrong/, and Kane does somewhat acknowledge the kind of unfair fact that he doesn’t have a say in the fate of his child. Again, that’s a tricky topic and I didn’t want to treat it dismissively or lightly, so I’m glad that they both just came across as flawed and genuine human beings!
        Thanks for your typoed comment 😉

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  1. There is a mod called Pregnancy Controller and it allows you to set the pregnancy percentage, so you can get your sim a bump. Really a time saver.
    I’m glad that Faye decided to keep the baby, not necessarily to stay with her son, but maybe she would want to be with him at some point. And we got the first potential heir! Law, what a name, wow. I am sure he will have a lot of adventures.
    Yay to completing this generation!

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    1. Ah, thank you! I’ll have to invest in that next time. Either that or actually play the game! Law isn’t actually a potential heir, sadly, but he is super important to the storyline and we will be following him for many chapters to come!
      Thank you 😀 took me long enough!
      Thanks for your comment!

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  2. Oh my, those were some developments there!!
    Although Faye was right about her not being ready to be a mother, I felt kind of sad when she decided to terminate the pregnancy… but thankfully Kane changed her mind!
    Now time for one of the greatest responsibilities dude: keeping a baby alive 😁 Aah, I’m sure he’ll do a decent job at that! As to what kind of parent he’ll be..well, I guess we’ll soon find out. 🙂
    I love the name: Law! It’s funny when Kane’s whole family was apparently breaking it all of his life 😁

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    1. They managed to come to a decision that worked for them both, which is always nice to see!
      Haha, Kane will try very hard to be a good father, but with no one to help him out, he doesn’t really know what he’s doing! A fact that will hit him soon.
      You know I never even thought of the irony there. But I like it! It’s kind of symbolic for Kane – breaking away from one family and starting another.
      Thanks for your comment!

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  3. Welcome to the world, Law (I love that name by the way) 🙂
    I’m happy that Faye went through with the pregnancy. Hopefully, maybe, in time she will want to get to know her son.
    And those last few lines are very interesting. I can’t wait to see what life has in store for Law, since I can tell he is going to be important to the story!!

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    1. Thank you! At this point in the original legacy I was playing one of those old fighting games and I always picked Law, so I decided to name him that 😛
      When she learns not to run away from her problems, sure! She has a long way to go still.
      Oh, he is. And I’m really excited to get stuck in! However, I have to stick to my other projects too xD
      thanks for reading!

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  4. Baby Law!! I can’t wait to see how he grows up and if Faye will ever reunite with him. I’m glad they compromised on the baby situation! It wouldn’t have been fair for either of their opinions to be brushed off

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    1. Yes, exactly! Both of them had valid and genuine reactions and it’s rare to work out this situation in real life, but I think this solution worked for them all. Faye would have found it very difficult to actually go through with an abortion, and it would have weighed on her mind forever had she done it.
      Thanks for reading!

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  5. It happened. It finally happened. The ‘arc’ of the Williams’ family is about to begin…and just like you hinted to me it would. Darn it, I really hate when you keep your word sometimes 😉
    Wonderfully written as always, especially when it comes to a topic as delicate as this, I think you represented both sides fairly and it really spoke to me as a reader.
    Welcome to the family little Law…lord knows it’s going to be a bumpy ride from here 😛

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    1. Heh, well, I am nothing if not reliable!
      Thank you, I really appreciate you saying that. It’s a difficult topic and I didn’t want to handle either side insensitively.
      Oh boy, it sure is! Poor chap…
      Thanks for the comment Rach 😀

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  6. Aw, too bad Faye let her insecurities ruin a good thing. But she did have the baby, so props to her for that. And who knows, maybe she’ll come around in the future? Although, I doubt Kane would be as accepting.

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    1. Kane is definitely going to resent her for leaving, even though it was part of their agreement. But neither of them are particularly rational or reasonable people lmao.
      Faye’s comment on not having to try something to know she’s bad really just sums up what she thinks about everything in life. Like the one attempt she had at playing piano before giving up. She just doesn’t stick with things and as a result didn’t want to stick with this!
      Thanks for commenting 😀

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  7. I know this is gonna sound bad, but I can’t help but kinda be on Faye’s side SLIGHTLY. I think it’s because like I guess it’s like if I found out I was having a kid like this January and I AM NOT FUCKING READY FOR THAT NOPE NOPE NOPENNOEP NOOOOOPE. So, I guess I’m like puttin myself in her shoes and it’s understandable and almost like if I was in that position, I’d probably react almost the exact same way she did.

    It does make me kinda sad that she didn’t like, try. But, I guess if her mind was made up…
    I like how she did as Kane wanted however, and wasn’t just like “fuck you my body my rules”, maybe that shows how she still cares deeply for him? Idk, I like to think so tbh. I guess no matter what, there wouldn’t have really been a truly happy ending, whether they (or just Kane I guess) kept the baby, or if they did get rid of it. Hmm.

    Anyway! I like the name Law, it’s cool ^-^

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    1. Oh yeah, she is totally in the right to make that decision. It’s her body, her decision. Of course, the unfortunate side effect of that is Kane doesn’t have a say in the fate of his child. One of those situations where it’s unfair but there’s no perfect alternative that would suit everyone.
      Had Faye and Kane stayed together, they would have grown on each other, genuinely. But it wouldn’t have been a proper in-love scenario that Faye wants, and that might have led to resentment and tiffs. They certainly would have had their fair share of arguments haha.
      Thank you for reading!

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  8. It’s funny to me that Alicia just kinda has to put up with all of Faye’s problems. She tries to help, but Faye is unwilling to listen. She probably didn’t expect this much trouble from her new roommate.

    Kane’s response was certainly surprising. It does make sense with his Catholic upbringing, though. My boyfriend was raised Catholic, and even though he has moved away from it in the last few years, I can still tell that it’s something that shaped his personality.

    I’m glad that both of them were able to come to a decision that they were happy with. Maybe Faye should have given it a chance, but at the same time I agree that she wasn’t ready for it. She’s really young and their relationship wasn’t solid yet. I think it’s possible Kane will be a good father, but he doesn’t seem like a good romantic partner, and I can imagine them fighting all the time and making the situation worse.

    Kane doesn’t seem too ready either, but he made his decision, so I hope he will be a great father. Good luck to him and Law!

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    1. She is fascinated in a way, because Faye is so inept at everything lmao, but it is starting to exasperate her. Luckily, Faye has disappeared back home so Alicia won’t have to deal with her problems anymore!
      Yeah, it’s weird how much you internalise without really realising. And he’s just as self aware as Faye so does not realise he’s done it haha.
      No, Kane isn’t a particularly good romantic partner. Too emotionally stunted. That being said, the right person would help him I think. He has a lot of issues that he doesn’t think are valid enough to talk to help, which makes me sad for my problematic son 😛
      Law is the most important thing in kane’s life now.
      Thank you so much for reading and leaving a lovely comment!

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  9. I have a feeling that Faye is going to regret her decision. I’m glad she didn’t abort the baby since shed regret that even more. She can’t blame Kane for not supporting her either. He would have done whatever he needed to do whatever she wanted to make things work. Fingers crossed he is a good father.

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  10. I appreciate how honest Alicia is, but sometimes I wish she would just lie. :/ Faye probably didn’t need to hear that she wouldn’t be a good mother right now. I’m surprised Alicia didn’t approach the conversation with more solutions to Faye’s concerns.

    I understand why Faye just took off. I felt like Kane was using too much guilt to manipulate the outcome to what he wanted. I mean, it’s not an easy decision to make but jeez, no one met Faye in the middle with this. :/

    Positive stuff: I love the name Law and I’m looking forward to seeing how Kane deals with this! 😀

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    1. You know, that’s a very good point about no one seeing Faye’s point on this. I guess everyone is just so done with her that they haven’t really evaluated the situation probably. And since she hasn’t told her family, she has no support frm them either.
      Kane was definitely using guilt there, though. He doesn’t realise the depth to his actions, just sort of repeats what he’s learned and seen from the world around him. He needs someone to sit down and explain to him how he’s being problematic in various ways haha.
      Thanks for commenting!

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  11. I enjoyed this generation a lot, especially as things ramped up – as you may have noticed from the comment spam, eheheh 😛 And now I’m even more excited to read the next gen! I’m pretty excited since I’ve seen pictures of it here and there. I’m sure it’ll be great 🙂

    As for this ending… for once, Faye actually made the right choice, I think. There’s really nothing wrong with not wanting to be a mother, in my mind. As someone else said in the comments, you handled the discussion well 🙂 Neither person was in the wrong.

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